Out of Shape

Well I never thought this time would come, but I am really out of shape. I have always had a high metabolism and have never struggled with weight. At the moment I am NOT overweight. I have been at a constant weight of 125lbs. for at least the last 4 years (Funny story when I had to go to the doctors last, they had to weigh me and they asked me how much I weighed before they did so. I told them 125 and sure enough they told me "you were right on the money").
Now to be honest with you, I think 125lbs is a little too light for my height. According to my height my target should be 140. I think that is a little high. It is also known that the height to weight ratio is not 100% accurate because people have different body types.
My goal therefore is to gain at least 5 more pounds. Not of fat though. Muscle is key. I exercised the other day and have found that I am really out of shape. I feel like I have lost every single muscle in my body over the last 2 years. My muscles have decided to switch to fat. Okay I know muscles don't decide to do stuff. I blame myself for being out of shape.  I know right now there are a ton of people thinking "oh shut up, you are lucky to be in the shape you are in."  It's true though.  I am lucky to be in the shape that I am with no effort at all. Maybe it's because I have good genes???
Anyways, my plan is to exercise my legs one day, then the next day exercise my arms. Of course then I would repeat. I do not want to go a day without exercising. I'll let you all know how I am doing after a few weeks.

So everyone knows by now I love music, but I also love Wade Robson as a dance choreographer. Here is a dance he choreographed on the show "So You Think You Can Dance."  Pretty amazing in my opinion. The song is interesting. Has anybody else noticed that over the past several years zombies have become extremely popular? Either way, if I were to become a zombie one day, I would want to dance like this.  =)

I miss you already #1344

So many of you know already that my internship came to an end yesterday. 10 weeks flew by so quickly.

I remember walking in June, 6th not knowing what to expect. On top of that, I only knew Frank and Vladimir (the other interns) from classes and was really only acquaintances with them. First person we met was Sherry from personnel. Then, we jumped right into out first morning meeting with management because it was 8 a.m. We introduced ourselves and I was a little nervous because there was a lot of things that they said that I had no clue what it meant. One thing I learned was that our company had terminology of its own and thankfully I was able to learn all of it before this internship ended.

Moving through the first weeks, we were trained by a wonderful person named Terri. Then, I was thrown into Produce with a great department manager and a bunch of amazing sales associates. One thing I came to appreciate was all the hard work everyone has to do to maintain fresh produce.

Then, we experienced the worst, CBLs or Computer Based Learning.  I hated them. In fact, there were several times when I kept dozing off to sleep. Speaking of which, after my first 3 days I had a dream about work. Guess what I dreamed about.  Of course, it was more of a nightmare because I dreamed that I kept falling asleep at work and I actually sat up in bed in the middle of the night thinking I needed to wake up.  No joke, but that was the first of many dreams about work.

I definitely learned from the best of the best. From our zone managers, our department. managers, our assistant managers, our co managers, our store manager Jim, and of course all of the sales associates. Everyone was so helpful and nice to us. I honestly felt like I was a part of a family. I was able to get to know a lot of people. I am proud to say I was able to work with the best people. They are what made my internship one of the most memorable experiences I will have in my life.

Lastly, there is Frank and Vladimir. Definitely two interesting characters, but definitely two hard workers. Frank absolutely loved hanging out in Sporting Goods. We should have just pitched him a tent there to live. He is definitely a quiet guy at first glance, but he shocked me on some of the things he said. Definitely a funny guy and a fellow Office fan. Vladimir... What can I say about that guy. We had our differences and struggling moments. One thing that Frank and I learned was that time means something totally different to him. We figure it is a Dominican thing. We also felt like we had to put a GPS system on him. When we had to go out and learn something he would just disappear EVERY TIME. It was frustrating. He is a great guy though and definitely kept things interesting to say the least.

Overall, I had the time of my life. I never thought a job could be so fun. I will never forget the people I met and learned from. I fell in love with the company, learned as much as I could in 10 weeks, made some friendships, and gained a greater appreciation for everyone who works day in and day out to make that company successful. I will definitely try to visit store #1344 whenever I can. 

Never thought I'd feel this way

So this could possibly be the last time I am here in Buena Vista,VA.  We can count back 3 years since I first arrived here to attend SVU. At first, I hated it. I wasn't making any friends because everyone I met was down right weird and not worth getting to know (that may sound mean, but everyone should know by now the type of people you get along well with). It wasn't until halfway through my first semester that I met some people to spend time with and to have fun with. Since then, I was able to meet more and more people through the people I had become friends with. By all means I am no popular person. In fact, I went through most of college with a small group of friends and a small group of acquaintances. Maybe that makes me picky?

One of the oddest ways I met one of my best friends was through Facebook. He was looking up his cousin who happened to be named "Melissa" too. When he was searching he came across my name and saw I went to SVU just like him. For some reason, he decided to friend request me. Looking back, I have no idea why I accepted his request. I am glad I did. I started chatting with him and found out that we had a lot in common (from loving the Redskins, to having the same major, and to watching The Office).

I also learned how to live with people. I have learned that personalities don't clash all the time. Whether it be with 2, 9, or 4 housemates. However, for the most part I consider myself lucky to have met and live with the people I was forced to live with. I keep in touch with almost all of them. Even though I may be a slacker in talking to them, I do make sure I reach out from time to time to see how their lives are.

I have definitely struggled with living here though. It has it's ups and downs like any other place. However for some reason, something hit me driving home from work today (no, not literally haha). I feel somewhat sad leaving this place. I believe it is all the memories I have had with my friends. Such as having The Office marathons late at night with Leon, passing around a football with Amy in the snow, watching two seniors laugh for no reason while writing their senior papers, hearing the funny quotes that everyone says ("I don't understand why are you in my room", "Pizza It", "the back of your head is ridiculous", etc), playing games, watching movies, trying to survive tough classes together, and just finding stuff to do in this small town. There will always be a special place in my heart for all of the memories I have experienced here.

Life moves on though. Careers are made. People move to new places. And days go by...

Understanding me

The other day I was curious about how people view me and if it is anywhere near close to how I view myself. I honestly don't care what people think about me, but nevertheless I wanted to compare my views to the views of others. I realize that people change consistently over time, so by no means do I expect this description to be accurate several years down the road.   

I am a very quiet person in public. I like to think and observe things, people, behaviors etc. In general I like to think a lot. That is why I am perfectly fine with being by myself from time to time. I am very much an introvert. That is not to say I don't enjoy going out with a bunch of people to have fun. Since I am a quiet person, I am not one to show my feelings to everyone. In fact, i require someone to know almost everything about me before I begin to open up about things. So even though I don't show it, I care a lot about people but nobody would ever guess that I do.

I also have a good sense of humor. It isn't until I feel comfortable with a group of people that I can start cracking jokes all the time. I'm also a hands on type of person. Even when I was young, I would love to help my dad out on projects around the house. I guess it has to do with how I love to be apart of things (as long as the activity is fun or helps produce great outcomes.  So don't be surprised if I don't participate in a silly get to know you game). 

I also try to avoid any embarrassing moments. It takes me having a lot of guts to get up and do something that could be potentially embarrassing (for example: dancing, singing, or games that requires you to make a fool of yourself in front of others). 

I am also very competitive. Not to the degree where I'll do anything to win, but I definitely care about whether or not I lose. 

What are things that I hate:

Unnecessary drama, people acting stupid based on the social norms and in general, hypocrites, people who can't give any reason behind their actions, egotistical people, people not replying back to me when I try talking to them (if you're busy just tell me and I'll understand), tomatoes, pickles, mustard, some fish, hot humid weather where you feel like you are swimming when you step outside, Lebron James, Kobe Bryant, and arguing. 

 

What are the things I enjoy the most?

Sports, Video Games, Music, Movies, Family, and Friends. 

I am a sports fanatic. Name almost any and every sport, I will guarantee you that I have some kind of love or interest for it. Now I can't play most of them, but I love to watch sports like crazy. In fact, ESPN is my favorite channel to watch. I also absolutely love bowling. (refer to one of my previous posts on how much I love it)

Video Games: I love them! Mostly Call of Duty and other shooting games, but I do find time to play sports games and others from time to time. 

Music: I listen to pretty much everything and anything. Music can calm me down when I'm upset, make me happy when I'm sad, and can help me get in the right mood for whatever I have to do for the day. 

Movies: Love action films the most. Gladiator, the Patriot, the Book of Eli, Inception, the Bourne movies, Lord of The Rings, Harry Potter, etc. Not really huge into chick flicks even though I can watch one from time to time. I HATE scary movies, they give me nightmares. I can handle some scary such as Signs, Shutter Island, the Sixth Sense, What Lies Beneath. Never ask me to watch movies like the Ring though. I also love a good comedy. 

Last but not least, I love being near those that I love the most. My friends and family hold a special place in my heart. They say that humans are "social beings" and that they need one another to survive. I couldn't agree with that anymore. I could not imagine my life without them. The experiences I go through with them help shape me to who I am today. That is why I find it extremely important to surround myself with the right people. So when I consider you one of my friends, do not take that for granted.  Because I am a person who has a select few people as friends. I prefer to have a small group of close friends than a large group of people who are somewhat my friends. 

Now by all means I am not a perfect person. I love who I am, I love trying new things, and I am very open to new ideas. If you have anything to add or you disagree with some of the things I said, let me know.  After all, sometimes the people around you know you better than you know yourself.

 

Life decisions

Haven't posted anything in awhile. And unfortunately I have come down with a cold this week and had to miss work today. This does give me time to think, to write a blog post, and to catch up on other random stuff. Here we go:
So I absolutely broke down on Monday. I was stressed with my final project for work and about what decisions I am making. Well the project is finally over with as of yesterday. However, I have so many doubts on where I should go from here. I am literally at a fork in the road in my life. But instead of just two options, there are several. On top of that I miss my family a lot.

Luckily I was able to talk to my dad and a good friend. Felt bad for my friend because he had no idea I was going to spring something like this upon him. Through talking to them both, I realized that I need to have faith in what ever I choose to do or where I decide to go. Sitting around being worried about whether or not I made the right decision is a waste of time. I just need to go and do what I think is best. Then from that point on just accept the consequences, good or bad.

So my issues with my life decisions are not so stressful anymore. However, I still miss my family. That won't go away until I see them again.

I want to thank my parents and my friend, Tye. I can get pretty ridiculous sometimes about stuff like this and I'm glad I have people in my life that I can turn to for help.

Lastly, I just want to say how much I love Coldplay.