In the past year, my relationships with certain people have been on roller coasters. Whether it be disagreements, misspoken words, deliberate actions, or other things . . .
It is plain to see that relationships in general take a lot of effort to make last. I consider myself a very forgiving person. When someone does something that hurts me, I tend to forgive that person as long as that person is legitimately sorry.
I won't go into names or details, but I feel as though I forgive others, but others do not forgive me for the mistakes I have made. I never looked at it like that until today AND it is really bugging me. I don't understand why I can regret something and try to make up for whatever I screwed up, but never be forgiven. I would like to say I just need to move on and that it is their problem. However if someone doesn't forgive me, I tend to hold on to a terrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. I can't quite explain it. It makes me hold onto my regrets for a long time, if not forever. I say that because I cannot think of something that I was able to let go of in a situation like this. Who knows, maybe I am meant to suffer longer for the mistakes I make.
Hope everyone is doing well. I apologize if I haven't kept in touch with some of you.
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